Ana w hu - 2

Our first summer

Recap: Our 'relationship' continued.

I didn’t mention this in the previous posts, so I thought I’ll throw it in at the beginning of this post. So in one of our MSN conversations (probably just before exams were over), he said he wanted to tell me something.

M: Umm, N, there’s something I want to tell you.

Me: Ok ..

M: Bs a5af you take it the wrong way

Me: La gooly ..

M: Bs maybe you don’t feel the same way or something.

Me: C’mon, just say it.

M: I think I’m in love with you ..

Me: Oh .. umm .. me too, I think :$.

Haha, as you can see, that was pretty kiddish, bs give me a break people I WAS a kid. Mal mga9a moool haha. But I knew it wasn’t love, just puppy love, excitement, a crush, keep in mind I still thought it wasn’t serious, I actually believed it wasn’t me, since he didn’t know my real identity. ‘3abiyeh, awanh itha may3arf ismy ya3ny 3ady :p

Elmuhm, like I said before, as the days passed, we became closer, we talked more often and often. I actually remember the very first phone call from my own mobile. It was probably a day or two after I sent that text. I was out with my parents and brothers for a family lunch in Japengo. We were going to talk once I got home. And we did. I was in my room, he called. I was really shy. He would talk and talk and talk and all my answers were practically single worded. Anyhow, we chatted some more, well he did at least, then my little brother came in and said we’ll be going soon. It was just to my grandparent’s house, I was in seventh grade and a9lan wasn’t allowed to go alone to malls whalswalif. S2alny where I was going, ‘Oh, nowhere’ I said in a casual manner. Awany 3ad mysterious w cool, ya7laily ela bait yadoh sayra haha :p . I said I was going to close now, he said ‘OK, sim3y, ihda2 lech’

غمض عيونك حبيبي غمض عيونك
بقولك شئ بس اسمعني بقلبك
محتاجلك في حياتي ما اقدر بدونك
او بختصرلك و اقولك احبك احبك

مجنون بك واعترفلك صرت مجنونك
لا الذنب ذنبي ولا ذنب الهوى ذنبك
لو كل هالناس بعيوني يشوفونك
إن كان ذاب بغلاك العالم و حبك

اموت فيك وفوادي ينبض بكونك
واوقف واحس بغرامي يمشي بدربك
وإن جيت افكر في نفسي كني اخونك
يا كيف افكر في نفسي دامني قربك

احلف بربي احبك موت واصونك
واحس انا بنبض قلبك يحلف بربك
ياكل عمري خلاص افتح عيونك
ماقلتلك شئ واللي قلته لقلبك

I mean, how sweet is that?! He kept me on for the whole song, and the words were just perfect. And I like died, I melted, I completely melted. 9dg ya3ny thbt eb ma3na elkalima, hehe ga9aw 3layih 3adel hehe.

I was excited; I thought that it was nice knowing that a guy was actually interested in you. I was a kid, and before that, I was actually quite mature for my age, I just brushed off any thing to do with guys, but, you know, when it’s happening to you, when you’re the one he wants, it’s different. You’re young, you’re naïve, you fall for it. And I for one fell hard.

As you know it was summer, and we were travelling to Africa for holiday. Our flight was around 11 AM. I had talked to him all night before, I was kind of sad.

‘A5eech, mool mb shay bdoonch ya N, shu basawy a7een ana?’, I remember him saying during that phone call. Anyhow, the next day, at the airport, he texted:

Which gate are you at?

24 something.

Ok…

*After a few minutes*

Fdait.ha ana! Batwalah 3laich!

He actually came to see me! I didn’t see him though. This has happened before haha. Just before we travelled we went shopping in Sahara centre (3ad hathak elwagt mashay DM ;p) for some clothes. Anyways he texted asking where I was. I told him 9a7ara and he replied that he was there too! He asked which shop I was, I was in NEXT lol. He then texted : Fdait el7ilwa ana! And again, I didn’t see him lol. I was very oblivious at that time lol.

Elmuhim, on the plane, on our way, I was quite sad. I listened to ‘Lail wdmoo3’ on my iPod all the way. It was on repeat. Ya3ny 9dg it was sad. ‘El lail w3yoonk wana, kln bka wagt elwda3’. Ah. I had such strong feelings for him, 7ta lu they may have not been ‘real’ or whatever, I know what I felt, and whatever it was, it was strong and passionate.

When I first got there, first thing I did was plugged in my phone. As soon I switched it on I got a message, from him. ‘7abebek m7a6am jroo7n w mnhar, 7aleh 3laik mn elwalah 3aks 7alek’. Omg, I so cried. He was so sweet, he really made me feel so loved and wanted.

Our trip wasn’t bad at all, I talked to him every night. It was lovely. I used to sit, at night, on the window sill, with the window open and the breeze blowing in my face ever so slightly. I remember the view vividly. It was a neighborhood, since we stayed at a guest house, and all the houses had alarm systems all over and a light flashing in accordance to this certain pattern, and on the side there was this bigger road with palm trees lining it, you could hear the noise of cars passing by.

It was such a lovely lovely time. We were still newly together, so the interest and that ‘spark’ 3agolat.hm was present and strong.

‘Bachr banseer nshoof el penguins’

‘Oh that’s nice. Bs looking at them?’

‘Yeah I guess ya3ny hehe’

‘Aha, 3ad I like to touch not just look ;) ’

Hehe, that was cute, albeit naughty, bas to be honest, he wasn’t suggesting anything, not at that time at least lol.

The trip passed by quickly, it was only 8 days. We continued on speaking every night until the morning back home, I would literally spend 6 hours just talking to him all night, and even during the day, whenever we had free time, we’d talk, and if not we’d text.

One time, I was sitting in our living room, and at the window again. I was talking to him and he said:

‘7abebe’

‘Ha 7abebe’

‘Ana ishu bnsbalch?’

‘Klshay’

‘9dg?’

‘Haih’

And I did mean it, he was my klshay.

It was only a few days after we came back from our trip and he’d go to Egypt. On the eve of his trip, in the living room, we were talking on the phone, when my cousin called me by my real name. ‘A’, he called. ‘A, A!’. ‘Shu tba 5alood?’, I answered my cousin.

It was then that M found out.

*Sorry guys for such a long disjointed post, a lot has happened since and I'm trying to fit everything I can remember from that time. Our story is very long and there are loads of aspects to it, so sometimes it gets a tad bit hard to write. If you have any suggestions, comments or whatever, let me know, it's much appreciated.*